2025

Time to reflect about the year.

I started writing this in 17th. I dont know what to feel about this but im so glad the year would be over and i can finally said my hardest year in my lifetime was over lol.

For the past recent years, ive been someone who explores so many different subjects and acted up on different things yet none of them was fully given my attention. So most my efforts there was wasted because everything was nowhere done or presentable and i dont really have any plan where i can take anything that i started. I just feel like i want to do something and do it for some reason and leave after a newer shiny object. Lucky i was over that phase of my life. This year forced me to take on an adventure, I had never prepared my life for lol.

To start my reflection; Ill begin with what I can remember more vividly.

Memories:

I remember talking to my childhood friend early this year, and were just talking and stuff i was also still in trench of exploring events in the city, and looking for jobs. I remember she was also looking for a job and she was considering a job that i was already training for especially for my nerves. Its hilarious how i not tell her that; were supposed to train at the same time lol. I just mentioned i found good people, that we can all be friends with, it was my fellow trainees lol. how naive i was back then, its hilarious, how i wanted them as a part of this valuable friendship so suddenly just becauase they added me in Facebook and i was so enthusiastic to know them more because were all so anxious especially me and it was my first decent job. Sadly that friendship didnt last, but it was my one of my most memorable experience.

One more thing that happened, how i actually pursued a career on ESL, its hilarious, but man i met 2 great people because of it. Like you know we had some more meetings other than the first time we met. One was from that training i talked about earlier, then another, and i led one of her exploration for a job, since were both expected to come to the same day interview so we came, maybe thats because we told someone that we knew each other in email. the first one we met like 3 times the second person 2 times. but we talk and cheer each other up. Oh not to mention i have that uhm HR in esl business. He invited me to another company, he also mentioned about entrepreneur that time the first company is declining - i approached him and ask why he asks whos interested in entrepreneurship and thats the time we become closer but its over right now, i hadnt had conversation with him since my fb account back then was banned. All my fb accounts i hold under different names were actually banned lol.

This one is one of the unforgettable thing that happened. Sis and i attempted small business for her, we came less prepared back then, she also messed up her samples lol. So were planning a small pastry business for her, we plan her being a supplier under consignment agreement. It didnt work, but at least it was fun trying. Clifford, someone i know from one of the job. Joined me to walk in businesses and make a proposal, we even go to a farther part of the city to visit a business i planned to go to. I didnt thought he will go with me. Its funny. Its a fun experience. I remember it was raining then lol, and i just carried the samples on an eco bag with visible used boxes that use to stack the samples together in the bag. So yes not the best looking bag for bring food samples to established food businesses/cafes lol.

Lots of things happened this year as well. Thats a lot to write but ill get to the point. Its mostly because i was trying to work or try something out. I tried many jobs, real estate, loan and insurance agent, BPO, configuration, i tried a job (cashier) that was near our apartment and honestly that was kinda scary since people including former classmates idk might come across me while walking back home at afternoon which it did happened but i avoided them lol. I even considered working a full time job that also offers their employees to stay in and they were far from home, 2 were very far. I tried like 3/4 of them idk. It was totally a scary experience. Totally different life i had the year before.

But hey its the most practical year yet for me.

I made many websites this year, earned bunch of digital certificates about technology, unlocked TESDA program like i can now enroll on any programs i ever like and know the mechanics of it, had my first freelancing income that proved to me that not all freelance employers/platform are scams and you can actually make money online, the most exciting part about this year business/career wise is an ambitious app that originated as a simple idea while chatting with Chathgpt lol. Now it's alive coming from my imagination and dedication.

That was a lot for me in a year. Since comparing other years was spent thinking and talking. So this year is very different.

Speaking of which Ill also include past years of my life into condensed format.

My timeline has been like:

2022: year of babysitting,housekeeping,singing and flirting.

2023: year of my ALS, started developments across fields in machine learning, mobile and web development, started improving conversational English fluency by application.

2024: year of intensified ADHD mixed with action, game dev, social movement,volunteering,educational reform, initiated job hunt, bold business activities and many many online experience.

2025: year where i learned discipline, many explored jobs and places across my city, complete projects, some weeks were slow used to learn a little.

I would like to view someones timeline. I like to see how people changed over time. If i ever look into someones/peoples timeline like this pls, make it short/a little longer like the above. I would want to read more about each of the year for some people so who knows.

This year, ive learned:

1.Planning and creating a daily routine that leads to the goal is significantly better than just having a goal and winging it.

2.Being a job hopper can have consequences. Being a job hopper myself: i can tell people want to see your work history. If they look at your resume and they see you only have months or even just weeks of work experiences in companies before moving to another or applying. Its highly likely they will reject your application no matter how qualified you might be.

3.Loaning can be incredible way to make more money if you have a leverage like a business. But for starters: many lenders require collateral and/or stable income ie. they look for signals that you can grow/repay the loan.

4.People you meet online can suddenly ghost you. Even if you thought you connect so well and thats alright, people leave, and someone better will find its way to you.

5.People of any ages and in any walk of life can feel lost in life.

Things I'm most grateful for this year.

This year, i like really like it i hate it at some point hate but for all of its worth and without my own spectacle of feeling. Rationally id say this is the best year of my life. Its already a mix of what i like doing. Exploring and testing. This year offers more than that.

1. Im very thankful for the job experiences, you know its not really something that i had previously thought about, but life demanded it, and with it ive learned lessons and had many short fun memories. Ive learned how people behave in different workplaces, how they perceive their work, how some people work, some common complaints, etc. When i finally have a proper business in the future. I already have ideas how i can make working a better experience and how i can influence other businesses to make their environment or ethics better.
2. Transience. Friends who leave and left with lessons - namely 3 co workers; Jovelyn, Azee, Clifford. Including people from slowly - the app; Timothy, Russell and Tom.
3. The most obvious one if you read from my previous posts, The app. I had many new experience because of this. It also prompted me to a TESDA program. Just because that time where its still forming i want a validation. So i enrolled on a business and technology school. And it couldnt be better; i met 2 people there, one i specifically connected more maturely than the casual hellos, introductions and stuff. Among other things that this app enabled me to experience, more notable parts about it is the in app-payment, algo implementation, google play 14 day testing requirement, cold dming people, co founder hunting and more. Its incredible journey but its hard.
4. Without a doubt. I wake up everyday happier, write more and plan more, act more boldly because of Vynce. Hes been the center of my romantic fantasies and more. Words can never express how grateful i am to meet him, even if we dont talk, just the memories that he left me with is enough. Whats crazy about this is that, people drifts away when i talk about him, from my conversation some people even specifically said i can leave him behind in my pasts because he already left, and i was like ok, im preparing myself to forget him and leave the past behind, then at my freaking birthday. oh not me going emotional while writing a gratitude blog. Lol. I would just leave saying, I miss him more than anything.

So that was my year 2025. I hope someday ill look back in this and say, i want to cry how far ive come. But hey if my distant future self sees this, pls dont cry, you should be tougher, you can only cry if were together lol. Seriously, no seriously, you can only cry if were now a different person and i can learn from you a lot more than anyone ive met this year otherwise fuck you. Lol seriously.

Anyways this post is getting chaotic, just like my year this year. I just want you to take a lighter approach in 2026 and beyond because i did a lot of heavy lifting this year so you dont have to.

For anyone else. Stay discipline, stay alive, live the way your future wants you to live. Your future depends on what you do consistently.

Updates:

1. The Day before 2026. I got production access. I let my family know including my step brother. Even tho he seem disinterested. He mentions about selling it i insisted and he cant help but agree wonder that it might become like facebook he told. Even when he really doesnt look closer into everything neither asks any serious question.
2. Were laughing and screaming with my sister before 2026 officially started for us. When it was 2026 i opened slowly i was readying it. Im really commited not to break that promise i would only open slowly when its new year so, while we wait for the last minutes i held my phone and waited and we freaking scream when it finally said 12am in the clock while checking slowly and there i found vynce was still there he didnt deactivate i was so happy. I also notice his stamp stayed nearly intact i left on dec. 5/6 and took note that he has 90 stamps when i reopen the app he has 91. I thought if he didnt deactivate he probably has over a hundred of stamps already. And he has a new hairstyle in his avatar it was more neat than it was before.

Its a terrific YEAR!