Hello there, I am writing this to give an overview of this place to anyone this blog come across and introduce myself. Starting with my name.
I'm Louie.
I aim to become a future CEO and founder of Fortune Global 500 Companies.
I'm very ambitious and I am fully aware I am nowhere that goal but who knows the future right?
I originally started writing here to vent my feelings, maybe even make a normal blog talking about a niche or something. Over time I've decided to only write here to update or talk about something important for me and maybe others.
Writing here serves purposes for me such as:
- To journal.
- Inform others.
- Attract ambitious people.
- Talk about my emotions and feelings.
Who Am I:
To give anyone a clearer understanding of me. I made three different section. Who am I in the past, currently and what I carry in the future.
Spoiler this won't be a summary.
The past.
I've changed a lot by the years.
I used to spend a lot of time wondering the internet for something that interest me at any given moment. I dont care if i get anything done nor do i plan to. Now I always gauge risks in my decisions and asks if it will ever going to help me achieve my goals.
I became goal oriented because life keeps annoying me. I wont say i have a hard life or easy. But my life has a lot of different texture.
I had an amazing childhood with many friends, we move from 3 different cities, I lose many friends and were always on financial difficulty thats our main reason for moving and now were on our 6th apartment.
From the age 14 until 19 I have been responsible for taking care on apartment, washing our clothes and dishes, raising two of my sisters with 2 year age gap. Both my parents have to work to support our family .I discontinued school mainly because I'm getting bullied even in my elementary years one teacher keeps making fun of me to a point ill fake being sick just so i can go back home. Bullying didnt stop there I was still bullied by my classmates in high school ill go back home exhilarated and I still have to take care of my siblings and the apartment so I decided to drop out.
That decision changed my personality a lot. I became more active, i get more rest, I was more friendly toward people, i was finally outgoing and i can say a lot about whats going in my head by the time we have to move to another apartment I already amassed so many great memories. All while being responsible brother to my sisters. The time and freedom that i had also expanded my interests.
Soon i have to take responsibility on my life. The kids are growing up so fast, they can look after themselves day by day.
With the help of my mom she persuaded me to learn modular on high school and study on ALS.
I was still hesitant but I did it anyway.
I still havent finish K-12 im halfway grade 11. When i told someone dear to me i havent finish high school. He didnt question why. Instead he asks me a forward thinking question instead of asking more about my past. Its ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Well for me, I couldve chosen mechanical engineering /computer science or architecture to be honest. Its more defined than how i told him about it because before i was a big explorer and i couldnt decide. But what wouldnt change is that im always interested in things that serves the human race, especially electronics, robots, buildings, cars, aviation. As well as everything that expands my understanding is intriguing like particles and the universe.
I dont like learning because i was force to, or that I need to learn for a profession. I wanted to learn because I want to understand and create something.
Some people argue that people should study for a job. I mean even our parents asks us what we want to become someday and urge us to go to school right?
Well for me. I didnt have to study to have the jobs I had.
I tried many different jobs before not because they were interesting for me but to acquire experience and take some time away from home for personal reasons lol.
Funny enough, I tried doing business before i had a taste of what job feels like lol.
I learned a lot from the experience and I was able to share some lessons and knowledge about something to some of my former colleagues. But I won't go over about it here because then this becomes a long story instead of an intro.
I failed, I learned so much, did stuff i didnt know, I was always nervous going out, explored many places and talked to esteemed people because of it.
Thats about it in the past, it build me to what i am today and discovered aspects about myself.
The present.
Now i have to set aside my other interests and be more strategic with my time and energy.
My goal right now is make my first mobile app succesful. I did most of what i did in the past 6+ months because of it starting on june/july of 2025. I make more granular plans, I track what needs to be done daily, I try to stay consistent, most importantly i pray.
So far I like where everything is going but still I never face a day without a problem since I started this journey but it helps make things interesting. Sooooooo. I wont complain.
Into the future.
Plans, Hopes and Dreams.
I have many plans. Some were inspired by imaginations some are by my struggles.
Hopes and dreams. I always try to remind myself these things whenever life feels heavy.
When things dont go as expected, when the day feels silent, when i feel others emotion and I feel worn because i didnt keep a promise or worse when i have no one to talk to, I dont want to share how bad I feel sometimes to others because i barely have anyone to talk to when I feel great.
But you know what. Old memories also plays a role in how i keep myself together.
I dont know why we met but its really fascinating to me when he came.
We met on slowly. An app that lets you connect with people by sending letters and writing open letter or reading open letters where people introduce themselves or talk about random things. The app is meant for slow conversations and the letters has delays before receiving them depending on both the sender's and receiver's location. For us we have a 2 hour delay and he lives in the same country,
His letters were thoughtful, it was so empathetic it feels like he was really trying to search and form friendship online even if he already have friends in person. For once, I felt like someone is interested to know about my life, plan, ideas and my emotions. I was ecstatic.
I described him over and over and my feelings for him everywhere in this blog.
Another person who I had this kind of memory is a neighbor.
It was very weird. I never really knew him even tho were neighbors. Our houses had a high fence and we only can hear each others voices. We were rowdy back then. We play loud music everyday, we sing, my little sisters cry i mean we make so much noises, but they never confronted us about it. I was so naive back then. I miss this time sometime. I miss how less lonely i feel back then.
But if youre curious and you also believe music can describe a person this is how i would describe them:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6S913d2SQFlqpLOqDhally?si=ms2KBuXYRG6icUwdFb-SPw
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/22YkDN8YqqmVbT6iTKkvSs?si=SfLaZVuUQyWzmabIVy-ZDA
Last Notes:
I have many unpublished post here that are sensitive so they are unpublished. Someday when i feel more stable. I would put things back when i see fit.
Also this is just being playful if you want to stay anonymous and say something to me.
You can fill out this form.
https://forms.gle/uYT5LZScQ6BuVQC57
Contrarily if you like to directly contact me im always at my email.
ljay75116@gmail.com
P.S.This post is variable.
So are we.